“What if the trees refused to let go of their dying leaves?”
In this glorious time of year we are surrounded by the visual of the changes happening in nature. We can see the vastness of colors in the trees and plant life. We can feel the crispness of fall upon us. If we seek for some stillness in our life, we could be noticing the urge to go just a little more inward as the cool weather is upon us.
For me, today is a healing and beautiful. The space I’m in is a reminder of how far I’ve come the last year as well as last 39 years! A place of so much growth and understanding beyond myself. Monday a dear friend sat with me for an hour that changed my life in a way I didn’t see coming…but I have been present enough to be able to see the joy in it. He wanted to make sure I was okay. I was confused why his level of concern was so heightened. He’s always had my best interest at heart and Monday was just a little bit more. When he asked how I was and if I was going to be okay this week. My reply was…I’m great, yes, i’ll be okay this week as I have some fun things I was creating and experiencing in my life. He then proceeded to ask how I was doing with Mr. P’s wedding that would be happening on Saturday (today).
I think my look said enough. I had no idea! Mr. P failed to inform me of the day he was getting remarried. We both sat a little dumbfounded. Of course I began to cry. Crying for so many reasons. Mainly the pure sadness of the reality of someone I once knew and loved so deeply was no longer the man I once knew. Mr. P is so far removed from the version of a man I called friend. I cried a good cry and as I drove home, I cried some more. Then the freedom that comes from letting go came…I began to laugh! Laughter is such a good place for me to go when I’ve cried so much and the tears run dry, they can transform to joyful sound…laughter.
Letting go and moving on happens in such a magical way. Just as the seasons of change are so present in nature, I’m reminded of the freedom I have in my heart for letting go of SO much hurt, sadness, anger, frustration, disappointment, a lifetime and eternity with someone I adored. This freedom has allowed me the room & space to LOVE, trust, and strengthen deeper who I am. It’s beautiful to me, because I know the feeling of the opposite. How bitterness can easily turn to hate, how anger can quickly turn to ugly resentment, how loneliness can shift to depressing and down states of the mind & emotions.
So YES…I freely let go! I let go of unneeded and make room for new. I wrote myself a letter and in this letter it was the beginning of this next part of my life, including LOVE. Love is healing and powerful! Today is a good day to feel what you are feeling, allow it to process and move out, and then enjoy the beauty of the new energy you just created in your life. You are a master creator and designed for JOY!!